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Trusting the Magic

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , on March 30, 2016 by tivaniam

I’ve been having conversations recently that reminded me of my own a-ha moments and my personal journey with overcoming fear that once debilitated me. I have learnt through my own experience that courage should be recognised at the heart of the vulnerable. In a world that advocates living a life of pretence, I bow down to those who keep their hearts open and live and speak their truth.

Some of the most devastating events in our life put us in direct alignment with our destiny. We have to learn how to move past the lessons in order to see our path. This can only emanate from possessing a brutal level of honesty. We need to combat enough fear within ourselves to be able to live the honesty of our own truth – no matter how dark or bright. This admission was always hard for me. I attached myself to the victim mentality and continuously attracted negativity in my life that perpetuated that theory. I often felt like one step forward ended in ten steps backwards – continuous self-sabotaging behaviour. It was only until I realised that my actions reflected who I was and my life was a product of my own mind-set that things started to change.

I learnt how to show kindness to unkind people. I forgave people who didn’t ask for forgiveness. I love and continue to love unconditionally. It is never too late to create a new context and set the tone for amazing things to manifest.

We have to simply trust the magic of new beginnings and know that everything happens for our greatest good.

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Forgiveness

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , on January 2, 2014 by tivaniam
Forgiveness

Forgiveness (Photo credit: Celestine Chua)

I have been a victim of abuse, the worse kind that leaves no physical scarring, just a completely battered soul. My dignity and self-worth has been vandalised, but I realise now that I willingly surrendered it. I used to be a self-righteous woman, condemning other women who stay in bad situations until I endured it myself. It is said that a frog will jump out of a pot of boiling water. Place him in a pot and turn it up a little at a time, and he will stay until he is boiled to death. That frog could have been me. I could have been boiled to death. I just had the courage of conviction to jump out at the right time.  It took everything I possessed to leave and now there is nothing left to carry me forward. I am at rock bottom. 

A few days ago someone I love dearly lost her battle with cancer. That was a huge wake up call. It is so easy to remain a victim. So easy to be embroiled in bitterness and hatred, having that hatred spur you on until the viciousness becomes a cycle and everyone around you becomes enmeshed in chaos. I made a choice today to choose something different. I choose to forgive.

Forgiveness makes you grow beyond what you were. I am reclaiming my power that I unwittingly relinquished by holding onto anger. I am facing the world with trepidation but at least I do so with the knowledge that I am in control of my destiny. A simple choice is by no means simplistic. I forgive with the knowledge that one day I will be free from the internal pain that holds me captive and I can only break free once I release the anger, forgive wholly and make peace absolute.

Today, I forgive you completely and am moving on to the next chapter in my life.

I live in hope and still believe in love because I know that emotion which has the potential to break me is also the only thing that can heal me. I will not stay still now. I will act and hope that the universe will follow through.

 

 

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